My Heart Breaks!

My Heart Breaks!

My blog goes back to 2011.  I found myself offended by so much that was going on in our country and the Republican party becoming a party of "No."  So much is craziness.  I am old enough to watch the whole evolution of the Democratic and Republican parties.  Let me say, I am not as intelligent and factual as are many reporters, etc. about this process.  In that, I cannot name all the facts, but I do watch news and I watch how the world has changed.  I also watch what has happened to the Republican party.  I went to Europe when George W. Bush was president and an embarrassment to our country.  Facts were then becoming increasingly lost.  Now, we are hard pressed to decide what might be the truth from people's mouths.

So how did Donald Trump get elected?  I am hoping the investigations will get to the answer to that.  Manipulation of the Electoral College.

My Heart Breaks!

Purging votes.
Gerrymandering.
Cross check.
Russia.
Russian Trolls.
Russian Hacking.
Putin.
Lies.
Attacks on Hillary Clinton.
Manipulation of the Bernie Sanders/Hillary Clinton fans and trolling.
Hatred of minorities, people of color, women, LGBTQT, Obama.

For All of This, My Heart Breaks!

I know there are many more reasons.  I am now very scared about future elections.  Trust me, I will vote.  But what will be true and not true.  Who will really win the election.  Even when I went to vote this year, I had trouble with them finding me in the computer and the paper rolls, even though I consistently vote.  I had to go to 3 people, and wait until they could find me.  My question is where did I go from the paper trail as I was there 6 months before.

I have been enlightened about the level of misogyny in our country.  To the point of having such distrust/dislike of many superior acting middle age white males.  There is an arrogance there that I was not aware of before.  And I have just a small inkling of how awful it is for the females, especially Hillary Clinton.  I will remember Mitch McConnell telling Elizabeth Warren to be quiet in the Senate - "She was warned, and yet she persisted." REALLY!

I am an educated, single white female.  I am an older female.  I am also lesbian.  I have my own numerous experiences of discrimination and experiences that have happened to me as a single woman surviving on her own.  I became single in my 30's and raised 3 children, including 2 sons. Hopefully they are more enlightened males.  I will not list my experiences, but I know that my experience was different because I was a single female they were dealing with, no male at my side.  So I have just a teeny, tiny taste.

So, what does this have to do with Charlottesville this weekend.  In watching interviews tonite about our innate white supremacy, I want to know what I can do about it.  Last week, I remember reading about a black family being afraid to travel places and my heart broke.  I wanted to offer myself as someone to travel with them as a support.  Now this.

My Heart Breaks!

My Heart Breaks for the Future!

What I do know:
(BY Many and Most, I meant the majority of our citizens in the United States and the World)

Most of our country does not hate.  
Most of our people are not white supremacists.
Most of us care about others.
Many of us loved Hillary Clinton
Many of us loved Barack Obama and his family.
Many of us abhor what the Trump presidency has brought/enhanced/shined upon in our country - our country's SHADOW side.
Most of us don't care what color or religion someone is - we care how someone treats others. 
Many hate what the "Republican Party" has come to represent.  
         Money for the top 1%.  
        No healthcare for the country.  
        Destruction of the middle class.  
         No taxes for the corporations and CEO's but yes for the rest of us.  
         All of the "other" making $8.00 an hour because we are "lazy" and no benefits to speak of,                            including food stamps, day care, education, social security, or medicare.  
        Getting rid of all immigrants - be they mothers, children, fathers.  
         Discrimination and taking away right to vote from people of color, Democrats, etc.  
        Take away rights from women, as per Planned Parenthood, Birth Control.  

Gaslighting

This Presidency has brought the hate out of the shadows.  And it is surprising and sad that there is so much darkness.  But in the presence of light, there cannot be darkness.  So we have work to do.  As I said many years ago, a bully is willing to fight in a very different way than the rest of us will do.  As in Charlottesville, the supremacists were willing to carry automatic weapons, willing to kill, looking for a fight, and using physical aggression against the peaceful protestors.  This is one of the reasons I have taken to writing this article.  It is the Women's March that happened after the inauguration.  We have to fight and support each other.  We need the help of companies firing the identified supremacists.  We need the Republicans to stand up to the Trump presidency and all that it has brought.  Call our congress and Senators.  It is about more than health care and taking away rights from many.  

My Heart Breaks!

I wish I knew the answer.  I have always lived my life on the basis of respect for others and that we all have value. Yes, my heart breaks. The thinking and behavior of our leadership and others - we cannot understand it because we do not have it in us.  We are not all capable of being so callous and cruel.  I worked in schools teaching social skills and empathy.  How can we teach our children but the people running our government have none.  

Yes, my heart breaks, but that will let more love in, more understanding by me of how many have to live.  Even though I am a gay, single white female, I am not muslim, Jewish, black, or Latina, or another minority.  But I want to stand with them.  My heart breaks, but hopefully all of our hearts will heal!

My Heart Breaks, but they break wide open and then our hearts can heal.  

Our Hearts Can Heal!